03.28.2002 -> 04.07.2002 - seventhings

The seven best things that happened to me since my last proper update (in roughly chronological order):

1. I got my awesome free child molesterin' van
2. I got a domain
3. Went to Fuji's for the all-you-can-eat Sushi buffet with good friends on Friday
4. Saw an excellent movie for free courtesy of a roommate
5. Spontaneously went to L-town to visit The Moms
6. Cheap CD bonanza at Rasputin's
7. I finally got to see Katie again after far too long.

Seven slightly scary questions I've asked myself recently:

1. Am I nothing more than the sum total of all my bad decisions?
2. Is there really a difference between confidence and insensitivity?
3. What exactly are my goals?
4. Why the hell do I feel like a sea cow if I'm losing weight?
5. Is it a blessing or a curse to be able to come up with a joke in every situation?
6. Why do I stumble on my words when I mentally rehearse almost everything I say?
7. Why do all these homosexuals keep sucking my cock?

Seven things keeping me sane at work:

1. Trying to run the entire dialogue of my favorite movies in my head
2. Taking a fifteen minute walk every morning
3. Looking up funny names in the employee locator (there are thirty-seven Dongs working for my company)
4. People completely ignore me for the most part
5. Knowing that this is only temporary
6. I've learned to whisper the phrase "smoke it" without removing the plastered-on fake smile from my face when someone gives me bitch work to do.
7. Treating my self made rubber band ball like a housepet.*
   
   
   

   *Also possibly something at work that qualifies Jeffy as insane.

Seven mildly depressing things:

1. Sleeping clothed and alone on satin sheets
2. Generalized doubt and confusion
3. Teary eyed voicemail from family and friends
4. Walking into Target, being greeted by a Dashboard Confessional video and feeling my testicles shrink when I realized I knew the words
5. Movies like Y Tu Mama Tambien will never get made or widely seen in the United States
6. Listening to my co-workers talk about buying houses and settling down
7. Feeling like I'm way behind where I should be at this point in my life and somewhat helpless to do anything about it.

Seven things I'd like to have right now

1. A sense of certainty
2. A Roscoe's House Of Chicken 'n' Waffles within walking distance
3. A Slip 'n' Slide
4. A vacation
5. A place to live next year
6. Better conversational skills (the ability to express myself clearly, accurately and succintly/the ability to listen better)
7. Someone to occupy more of my time so I don't engage in the dangerous practice of thinking too much.

Seven good things:

1. Driving alone at night without worrying about getting stranded on the side of the road
2. Spontaneous and overwhelming smiles
3. Fifty CDs for twenty dollars
4. Good Day Sunshine
5. Returned phone calls
6. People are looking out for me
7. The new tradition of sushi on Fridays

Seven things I need to remember:

1. Calm the fuck down, already
2. Music should be preceeded by rent and food on my list of financial priorities
3. Make more time for people who matter
4. Be more assertive and aggressive, God Dammit
5. It doesn't hurt to make a decision occasionally
6. Search for the positive instead of immediately noticing the negative
7. At any given time there are at least seven good things in your life. Find them and focus on them in times of worry.

-- Jeffy